Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Jesus, You are Holy


I'm flooded with work. I am choking and the hardest part of it is that what I am doing is outside my universe. Somehow, I moved out from my orbit and here I am in a different galaxy. I carry upon my shoulder to do so many different things and yes I am affected. I am tensed and stressed lately. Sometimes, I say to myself to just go back and be normal again. Traverse territories that are familiar to me. There I can even drive comfortably even with out looking.

I know I can just go back if I want to but the "me" in me doesn't want to give in to this temptation. So here I am. What should I do? Where will I get instruction when it seems that guidance is no longer part of the package for going to this direction? Where will I find an angel who will be willing to guide me willingly? While I am thinking about this, work is flowing like a wild river. Control it or it will never stop even to the point of destroying the path.

Sometimes being without trouble is trouble already. It creates a space for complacency and slows us down. Then when troubles come I rattle and run in circles like a wild man. My heart palpitates because of the pressure. My mind start to think but not clearly and the result is not what is supposed to be. Physically, I get sick. Then "Boom!!" it becomes heavy and as I try to lift everything by myself, I just sink deeper. Until there is nothing I can do. But wait....

Jesus is just here. How stupid I am to forget! For so many years I've been with Him I always find comfort and answers from Him. He is the Lord of Heaven and Earth! Of all creation. He is my True Leader. God of wonder beyond Galaxy. Whew! Whenever I think of Him, I feel at peace knowing that God is ruler of all and that He is victorious! He is bigger than the universe which He Himself created! In spite of His greatness, He loves me and will not allow anything to happen to me. With Him, I am free and I can move.

Monday, February 13, 2006

I am a Leper too!

After our overnight expedition, my wife and I went directly to Sun Valley and attended the Sunday mass. I was really tired but tried my best to listen to the Priest. Then I heard the Gospel and the only words that I could remember were "Leper" and "touched by Jesus".

That was like my energy drink for it kept me awake and listen more intently to the Homily.

Yes, I am also a leper just like the man in the Gospel. I could imagine how the people then would do their best to conceal their sickness. Why not? When the community finds out then out you go! Damned for ever. Rejected no matter who you are. Then Jesus did something out of the ordinary. If I were there, I am sure I will also have the same reaction. I wouldn't find it amusing or be angry even. Because I also wouldnt understand.

But in the mass, I realized that I am no different with the Leper. I, too am living in secrecy. Leprosy one day will physically show itself but mine is spiritual leprosy and no one will ever see it. I lived a life pretending that since no one can see my sickness and it doesn't affect anyone then it was ok. Who am I kidding? Jesus just touched me yesterday. I was surprised that I was being Healed when I thought that nothing was wrong to me. When I searched my heart deeper, I said to myself and admitted that I too am a leper that need healing.

Jesus touched me. How I love being with Jesus. When nothing seem to be more important than to be in His presence. That's how the Leper must have felt when he was cured. He didn't care because he knew he was well again.

I realized what God has instructed me so many years agao. That in everything I do, I must find God there. Jesus loves meand His love is constant. Never changing. While I don't encounter any troubles right now, Jesus reminds me that there are something in me that still need to be healed. I shouldn't stop and ignore it.


I love Jesus and it comforts me to know that He loves more than I coulld ever imagine.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

I can only imagine (Praise Song)

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk by Your side
I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When Your face is before me
I can only imagine

Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus, or in awe of You be still
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine (2x)

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself standing in the Son
I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship You

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