When Death Surrounds Me

Another old fella died. Just last week a friend's dad passed away unexpectedly. I think almost every month I hear of someone (who is directly or indirectly) connected to us dies. Paranoia would sometimes sips in to me. Deaths every where. I get nervous whenever I think of my family and friends. But should I be so affected by people leaving this world? This is all but normal. Everyday people die. But for every death comes birth. Just look at the figures of the world's population.

I'm just a little bit uncomfortable of the fact that I know these people who died recently. So be it. I guess I'm old and every year new friends come into my life and the possibility that someone I know dies will proportionally increase as well. That's it. That's the explanation a logical one, that I can offer.

When a person dies, I think the most we can do is to pray for his/her soul that God will welcome Him in the gates of Heaven. We should comfort more the ones who were left behind and allow them to grief. Because it is really a great loss. Imagine, after so many years of being with the person then one day he/she is gone forever. Whoa.. I myself wouldn't now how to handle my emotion. I know that I dont handle goodbyes easily. It stings me to say good bye to someone what more it if it is forever.

I thank God that I have a God. He replaces the empty places in my heart. I know this, when my youngest sister migrated to US. I was overwhelmed by emotions and made me cry for several nights. I offered to God what I was feeling and just allowed Him to fill my heart. The longingness/loneliness I have, I let Him fill it. Thank God thank God really. I wouldn't know what I would have done if He wasn't present in my life.

I know that when we reach the end of the rope then it is time to depart this world. It is not us who decide nor someone else. It just happen. Mystery of the world that those who are left behind will not be able to comprehend and piece together this puzzle. By the time maybe that we've formed the puzzle coincides with the time when we need to go.

There is God. He is here and beyond this world.

My life (inaasam asam)

My Schedule (not yet happening but this is what I long for..:) ).

5:30am : Wake up/ Morning Prayer

5:45am : Exercise

6:15 am : Take a bath

6:45 am : Breakfast

7:15 am : Of to work

7:45 am : Prepare to work/personal matters

8:30 am : Start of work
Review of things to do for the day (for the week if Monday)
Review revenue (if Monday)
Start with priority countries

10:30am: Coffee break/Personal matters

10:45 am: Continuation of priority countries

12:00 noon: Lunch time

1:15 pm : Priority country/Other projects

2:30 pm : Other projects
Coffee
4:00 pm : Reply to emails

5:30 pm : Detail things to do for tomorrow

6:00 pm : Extra work/personal matters

7:00pm : Leave work
Monday : Prayer mtg
Tuesday: Badminton
Wednesday: Go home
Thursday/Friday Free time

This is me. : )

My life with Jesus
My Family
My Work
My friends
My Community
Others

These are the positive words that I hope would define me or what I am surrounded with. Not all maybe but some of these I hope.

Organize.Orderly.Clean.Happy.Healthy.Priority.Discipline.Prayerful.Honest.Relax.Achiever.
Passionate.Open environment.Simple.Comfort.On time.Service.Updated.Responsible.Caring.
Sweet.Smiling.Serious.Successful.Responsible.White.Blue.Green.Roots.Clear.Understanding.
Friend.Amen.Empower.Eager.Laughter.Peace.Love.Time.Plans.Present.Persistent.Positive.
Optimistic.Leader.Influence.Mentor.Faithful.Generous.Wisdom.Casual.Formal.Funny.

A Beautiful World

I want you to feel free to express yourself
Who you are and who you want to be
My love will not limit you in any ways or manner
Throughout our married lives that's how I wish it to be
I am just here to be your constant companion
One day, I hope that you can say to yourself
Whenever you look back that you've done
The things you've always wanted












I want you to be always happy.
That's my promise...to keep you happy
If you are sad, I will give you my funniest face
If you are worried, I will wrap you in my arms
If you smile, my heart smiles back at you
If you are laughing, I know that I am fullfilling my mission
















I am committed to love you
In this lifetime or in another life
It is still you whom I will marry
Time will not matter to a love that will forever
Be in love with you
My heart will not change my dear beloved
It belongs to you
You and no other


















I wish to give you a life of comfort
Even if we have children I hope you wouldn't feel burden
I will strive to provide for your needs, for our family
To toil and not to seek for rest....
I pray to God that He will give me enough strength
and be of service to my family



















Wherever I am in this part of the world
I wish that you are with me
I love being with you.
I love being with you.
I love being with you.

I like holding hands with you while we explore a new world
I dont mind being lost in a crowded city as long as we are together
I love talking to you while we walk along strange streets
Unmindful of people whom we wouldn't see again
They dont even understand us

I like sharing stories with you even if we've seen the same thing
Let's discover the world together!!!

















My beautiful, smart, sexy, kind hearted, wacky, funny, generous, prayerful,
sleepy, makulit, sweet, understanding, considerate, alaskador, good leader,
thoughtful etc etc etc wife Josephine...........

I love you with all my heart!
Keep it inside your heart too as I know
that you also love me as much as I love you

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