Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Few Words

10 months have passed and here we are. How fast things are are?! Polo has turned 8 months and has showed significant changes. Growth spurt! Go! Go! Go! Oh, aside from Christmas we should plan for Polo's first birthday party! What a happy child he is! Happy Happy Happy. The nearest celebration we will be having is our wedding anniversary!! Wohoooooo! Wohoooo! 3 yrs. Wonderful years. Beautiful years. Josephine, my beautiful wife. Loving mother!

1. God
2. Family
3. Career
4. Friends
5. Others

Five important parts of my life. Time to re-group. Time to think! Time to plan.

Oh no! I have to go to a meeting now!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Polo working

"This is where we live, Earth. Why is this star smiling at me?"


"Yup? Is there something I can do? I'm busy but let me check my schedule"


" Hmmmm... how will I make this thing fly? Let me see... e=mc2, the gravitional pull and the weight of the object.... mass x volume.... oh, I just need a strong arm!"

"Hep hep hep.. i have nothing to do with this mess. Daddy just gave me these toys!"

" Ok. For now this is ok, being cute and all. I hope Daddy will wear wings as well."





Monday, October 29, 2007

Talking to my self

Tell me about the star that seems to be so far away
I see it but how just like you can I touch it
Or one day own one of those glistening gems
I don't get tired. I want to listen to you
I want to have my own stars!
Hang them on my wall and be my light.
Not just for myself I am telling you but for others too!

That's too big! Maybe you can but I dont think I can
Do you think so? I already have my own stars?
Who gave it to me? Oh yeah, you are right!
God did! I have my loving wife Josephine and my heaven sent Polo
Definitely, I see them alright especially if I feel lost and alone

Go on. It is good really to talk to you.
You enlighten me. Inspire me. Move me.
So tell me, what about those stars? Can I still reach them?
Do you think so? Apart from my stars, I can have as many as I want!
Wow! Not really. I am a simple man.

I want to travel with my family. See places of different interest.
Expose my child to the whole world.
A simple house where light can easily come in.
Surrounded by plants and plants where we can unwind.
A library of my own and maybe
Just another car to bring all we need where ever we go

A good education for my son and send him where we think is best for him
Additional degree maybe for me about the world
About people and cultures and arts
I like that

Sponsor less fortunate children to go to school
Move me here move me here because I think I can do this now!
I can give him food, I can give him clothing maybe
But education will bring him/her somewhere and improve his life
I want to help and be instrumental to them

If I want I can. Thank you. Be with me. Nothing should stop me from pursuing these
What makes me complete is something I should focus on
Like what you've said. Discipline and faith in God.
Excitement instead of fear
Goals rather than difficulties
Bridge instead of walls

There is hope. It is enough. One day. It can make me happy.
One day. Just one day. No need to wait for tomorrow.
Or ponder too much on yesterday. One day is today.
Now. Now is the life that I should live.

I will capture my star. Now. Place around it a tight rope.
Not to trap it but to let it carry me to other stars.
Thank God. I am. Really!

Friday, October 26, 2007

A few minutes to spare

I only have to wait a week and I will know. It is near so near that I can't help but get excited. Oh, I hope it will turn out the way I want it to be. I read an article by Jack Canfield and it was like the article was referring to me. Yes! I have so many things that I want to do, tasks that I need to finish, Plans that remains plans until now and much much more. It is true. These unfinished business are really pulling me down. Like balls in a chain that tightly clamps my feet into the ground. Cant move up, sideways, or whereever. Just stuck.

In fairness, not all the things in my life is considered stagnant. I mean. Yeah, there are just some plans that I want to happen but nothing is happening. One. I guess I have to list it down. 2. I need to know what I need to do. 3. Deadline. step by step, Marvin. Little steps will eventually lead me to where I want. Ok. But of course without the chains then I can lift my feet farther.

Long weekend!!! Oct 29 is election day (again). No work. October 31, half day most probably. Nov 1 and 2 are holidays. So we will be back by November 5. Yahooooooo! But then again. I am sure there will be a lot of things to do by that time. I will just have to check my emails at home.

I guess it is the best time to review my plans, create plans, prepare for next year, clean clean clean.... :)

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Not Another Promise

"Go on your way" from Luke10:1-9

Has someone made a promise to you but you've been waiting for it to happen? How long can you handle it? Is it a test of one's character? How long will you be able to function without being distracted? Think think and tell me about it. I need to know.

I am a patient person. With circumtances, with people or practically anything. I can wait hours without really getting upset (provided I am not hungry). Let me wait in Starbucks, I can spend the whole day sitting and reading or blogging and I will not be angry. See. I am patient. So when something bothers me already, it is really streches my patience to its limits. Waiting not only what I mentioned above but basically in anything.

If it does affect me, I turn to God to help me. Aaaaaaaaaaarrrgghhhhh...... too difficult to bear.

I seldom doubt people and when I do, I know and feel that I am doing something wrong, Me. Always a benefit of a doubt. That's me. I still of course say something bad against people from time to time but I do feel bad about it afterwards and I try my best to correct it. Ok. Some people will also push me to do otherwise. Not easy. But hey that's life.

I hate being late. Hate it. hate it. hate it. I do not want to be late but I can tolerate people being late. As for myself, there is this standard that I always want to meet. Always. Just imagine how I feel when ever I am late or we are late in any gathering. Sad.

What else. I dont like noisy people (so, I hate my self.. hahahahaha). Noisy in a way that the conversation is so about him/her. As if he/she is the most superior of us all! I guess no one likes that. I do not like women laughing wildly. No matter if it is high pitched or low tone. Basta. It is annoying.

Honestly, I am afraid of giving promises because I believe that it is something that I should fulfill. Like, when I was India. I promised a vendor that we could meet/dinner after the day's event. Then, I realized that it would have been better to join the group instead of meeting with that vendor. I tried to cancel it but the vendor stated the article of commitment. So, I acknowledged and I gave in. Was the meeting worth it? maybe not that much in terms of business. But I guess it felt good that I fulfilled my promise.

Promise me? be careful. I will believe in it.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

For another Mar in NJ



Dear Marieli,


My not so little sister anymore. I understand your sentiment and observation and I guess it is a by product of really being too far from each other and for the time we have not seen each other. When you left, I knew that it will be like this. I definitely have not lost my connection with you. I guess you were so little then while I was already grown up. You know what I mean. As I've said in my previous post, I still miss you and think of you but it is just hard to bear knowing that I can not do anything especially now that I have a family of my own. This doesn't mean that I have already distanced myself to any of you. This is the reason why I try as much as I can to stay connected to you and our partners. That's why even if it costing me to call you guys especially on special occassions, I still see to it that I call.


Don't get me wrong. I have not really explaining here but only I want to reaffirm to you that whatever happens, where ever we are, time and distance will not be able to separate us. You are my sister. As I've said before, we hope Josephine, Polo and I will be able to visit NJ next year. I hope. I hope. I also want Polo to have a good connection will all of you. Because we are family.


See you soon.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Blue Gloomy Day

Maybe I had another exhausting weekend and that's the reason why I notice somethings which I try not to focus on or dwell on in normal days. Rewind. Let me share what exactly I am feeling and not what I am thinking. 1. Frustrated 2. Disappointed 3. Sad. 4. Angry 5. Exasperated. I know these will go away maybe tonight or tomorrow. You know. I feel stuck. Don't mis interpret me. Josephine and Polo are part of my innermost circle. Excluded and immune from my craziness. But no one else has the same previlege. The greatest joy of life right now is going home with Josephine, seeing Polo and closing my eyes knowing that they are doing fine.

I am totally annoyed waking up in the morning and hearing tensed filled discussions. I hate it. I am a silent morning person. As much as possible I do want to be greeted in such a way like today! Annoying.

The weight of waiting is starting to be painful. It hurts not to know what and why nothing is happening. I can be angry but what good will it do to me. Nothing. Right now I am telling you it is a ton-heavy-burden that I am carrying. Good thing I listened to Hillsong London last week. "Jesus, I surrender. My hopes and plan. I place my dreams in Your hands. In your hands. Because I know who I am with you. No shadow of doubt. It is Savior's love for me..."

Amen to you Jesus.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Houseband and loving every minute of it

Mommy Annie got sick last week. Coughing, felt weak and then fever. This of course meant that she will not be able to take care of our little boy. At the same time, we got worried that Polo might get sick also(so far, no sign of that.. yes, my superboy!). No choice but for one of us to take a leave. Jopay didn't report for work last wednesday then it was my turn to be a hands on daddy the following day. My only concern was how to give Polo a bath. I just realized that I have never tried that before. It was always Josephine and I only assist her.

While I was worried, I was at the same time excited. It was something new and bonding time for the two Agustins. I was planning to do a lot of things actually includingworking but i left my laptop at the office or catching up with my books and of course to watch Game 1 of DLSU vs UE championship game. I was only able to watch the game but the rest naaah.. Polo wanted m unconditional attention. I gave him that. I was happy, very happy I had time like that with Polo before he grows up. He smiled at alot, cry a little and we both laugh and laugh. It wasnt hard at all. I will treasure every minute of it. Polo knows if I'm there because he knows that I will not be able to resist him and would carry him after a few cries only (but he doesn't cry with his lola). I let him sleep on my chest and no I dont really feel his weight.

Yesterday, it was my turn again to watch over Polo but this time his Lola already intervened. She's doing better so she wasn't able to resist Polo anymore. I wanted to work but I just relaxed. I dont get to relax like that but only for a short moment. I still spent time with Polo and still gave him bath with his new toys which he didn't like at all. :)

Again.........AND NEVER SHALL WE FAIL! ANIMO LA SALLE!!!!

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Between Now and Then....what?

The question is, "Marvin, what are you goind to do?" I remember the time when I had no work for almost eight long months. Difficult indeed. I looked for a job but it was so elusive. I literally was able to enter all the buildings here in Ayala, walked and walked until my good shoes smiled and holes came out. Seriously, holes! Physically, mentally and emotionally tiring. Sometimes, there was an urge to sign a job order but within me I knew it wasn't for me. Thank goodness I followed God. I'm telling you, it is better to have a stressful job now that to be vacant for quite a long time without a job and of course money. Honestly, I was frustrated to God because at times I swear I could have accepted a job already but you know after praying His instruction was crystal clear. It wasn't for me. I can now say, God was right. : )

Anyway, the lesson is, I cherished that moment of my life. I have learned to respect and appreciate what was happening to me then. Today, it will be the same thing. Yeah, I've been waiting. I will wait but I will not focus on the waiting or what I am waiting for. It is going through the days and capturing all the things that are happening and do it properly. It is the Lord speaking right now and sharing to me some important life lessons. I decided to silence my self and instead listen to Him during this time and follow Him. After all, it is his gift. I do not want to missed out anything! Lord, continue to open my eyes. Let me see for myself everything as I wait. I understand now and still Lord, I offer it to you. I know from the past and I've seen your work. You are not yet finished with me but even then I am doing fine now.

Thank You

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Weekend Tidbits

As usual, same story. We were busy last weekend. Before it was just us but now Polo is part of the equation.

Saturday.

We had to go to Marikina for our Laundry so our day started early. We left at 8:30am and arrived in Marikina at 9:30am. Bad weather, bad for laundry. The hassle of putting all our soiled clothes in the car plus stuff for the weekends was stressful enough then we had to take it our again. We ate breakfast and Polo for the first time didn't like what he ate. Papaya. He ate it but after awhile he just vomitted. Good bye Papaya. Then, it was bath time for us three. Polo first and you know how it is giving bath to a baby. At around, 12 noon we left Marikina and went to Marikina Valley Hospital to pick up Dr. Joanne and we all went to attend a Financial Management lecture (Polo was present also and the nosiest : ) ).

The seminar ended at 6pm because we still had a one on one with one of the lecturers. Then off we go to Dr. Jo's house in Cubao for her to get clothings since Tyrone was still in the hospital. After that, we visisted Tyrone but only for maybe 20minutes. We went home in Marikina with Princess. What a tiring Saturday!

Polo had his first nightmare that night. Poor little fella and Josephine as well because she herself was frightened by that experience.

Sunday
We had to wake early again to attend mass. Same preparation. After the mass, we went back to the house to eat just a little and Princess and I went to Araneta to watch UAAP. It was exhausting of course because of all the walking, standing and shouting! We went back home at maybe 730pm then I had to put our clean clothe again in our car while raining (good thing I have a Caesar's Palace waterproof jacket. We left Marikina at 9:30 pm and arrived at PQue at 10:30pm. Wow! I slept at 12 midnight to wake up early the following day.

Oh, Polo had his first bukol (he is ok dont worry and his pedia knows about it already) last sunday.

Animo La Salle

That says it all! Oh, it isn't clear.. ADMU 60 - DLSU 65! What a season for our Archers. Ateneo wasted an opportunity when they played poorly and lost to NU. DLSU grabbed the chance and had a twice to beat advantage while Ateneo had to play their hearts out vs. UST and then had to beat La Salle 2X. Imagine that mountain they needed to climb. Yeah, maybe mentally they were positive and sure that they could do it. But man, this isn't a movie! When they lost to NU for me they already lost it all! Yeah, we will give them their 3 wins vs our 2 wins against them. Brag about it (just like someone I know). Hey, we are here for a higher purpose (always!!) this is not just about beating Ateneo or any other school. I think one should play the UAAP to be champions. *Sigh* and I guess to play in the championship is the only way to accomplish it.

Anyway, it was great being in Araneta last Sunday even if we were seated in the bleachers. We took it. Though, in games I've seen over the past years I think that was not my number 1. For me it was the championship game against UST in the late 90s(?). Last game, winners take it all. We were leading (almost) all throughout the game then suddenly UST grabbed the lead in the last minutes. In fact, I think there was only 6 seconds remaining or so and UST was leading by 3 points. We were celebrating before that lead then there was silence.. even from the UST crowd. Wow... Aldeguer got the ball and sprinted to La Salle court and with a second remaining threw a Alleluia shot.. Unbelievable, it went it!! There was total pandemonium in the Cuneta Astrodome. He was even fouled. He could have won it right there and then if only he made the FT. But he missed it and it was overtime and La Salle got the momentum and eventually won. That was the greatest game for me. Back in La Salle that evening, we heard him talking to his mom (celfone) and telling her that La Salle won. Ren Ren was beside him and they were really really really happy!

Franz Pumaren vs. Dindo (an archer himself)Pumaren. It was like Joel Banal (ADMU) vs Koi Banal (FEU). I think I will not be able to watch it live anymore. Thursday, we have work and on weekends, I will watch Pacman. : ) Can't have more activities over the weekend otherwise someone will knock me out. :)

..........and never shall we fail! Animo La Salle!

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